"Creep"

I hate who I am. I hate that I have this stupid personality that gets along with most but no one really loves. I've said it before and I'll say it again, but I just really wish I could actually connect with someone for once. I want to be more than just someone liked and accepted. I want to be loved and appreciated. I want to missed.

"I want you to notice when I'm not around."

Thom Yorke said it perfectly as he always does. I do want people to notice when I'm not around. I'm noticed when I am around. I always make sure of that one way or another, but if I suddenly became completely absent from the lives of those around me would anyone really miss me at all? Or would the memory of me fade into the background never to resurface in their minds again? Questions I ask myself again and again.